Well.. It looks like I'm doing it again. I have 3 papers due tomorrow and I'm postponing them until after I write this blog.. I'm not mad about it though. I like to write and I won't be able to focus on anything school related until I get this out of my head..

Tonight was my very last Christmas at Belmont! It's definitely bittersweet in the way that I'm thankful for being allowed to be a part of it but, at the same time, happy that it's over. Belmont has been an incredible place for the past 3 1/2 years and I wouldn't trade these times for anything but I know it's about time to move on. I won't get into that now! That isn't even what I had planned on blogging (<--- I think that's a funny term) about so I'll save it for closer to May.

My dad and grandmother came from Arkansas to see me sing in Christmas at Belmont tonight. My grandma, or Gan as I affectionately named her (being the first grandchild), decided to go back to the hotel early and get some sleep, so my dad and I went out for some tea and ended up talking for a few hours... keep reading..

You're going to think I'm straying from the topic but this is just how my ADHD mind works.. Do you have someone in your life whose opinion you really respect? For me, my dad is one of those people. Somehow, every time we have one of these 2 hour, late night, tea-drinking conversations, he ends up giving me advice on something that I'd been praying about but didn't talk to him about in advance. I so believe that God often uses my dad to say the words I need to hear. I know that's because he prays for me constantly and is truly seeking the Lord.. Shoot.. I should have saved this blog for fathers day. Juuuuust kidding.. I should definitely thank my dad more for what he does and give him a little more credit for the advice.

So, one of the things that was on my mind tonight was timing. I was driving home late and literally laughed out loud at the fact that I seem to have some of the worst timing imaginable. I always want instant gratification and I think that's something that I've grown used to in this world. Everything I could ever want seems to be so accessible and when it's not, I'm surprised. I have to remind myself that things worth having are worth waiting for and working for. I find myself looking into the future and seeing the things that I'd like to have and thinking that because I want them now, it must be the right time. NOPE, that's probably just MY ideal timing instead of the timing of the Author of my story. I think I'm just reading ahead. The funny thing is, I don't know if I skipped pages, or chapters, OR if I'm even reading the right book anymore! Example: I want a puppy, more specifically a Siberian Husky.. Problem is, I live in an apartment that doesn't allow dogs and I have no yard. Would it be fair to this very big puppy to keep him cooped-up in a tiny apartment when he needs to run and grow and sniff everything he can sniff? I don't think so.. My dad and I talked about this.. he's all for me getting a Siberian Husky in the right timing, when I graduate and move into a house with a yard. I WANT THE SIBERIAN HUSKY NOWWWWW!!!!

...but I know it wouldn't be fair to the puppy or to myself if I got it now. BUT, someday.. That Husky's mine ; )

Sorry, that was all kind of wordy and strange. I hope you're following along..

Timing is everything when it comes to puppies, life, love, interests, making tea, and metronomes and I guess I'm just going to have to learn to be patient.

Thanks for reading

-Bobby